Hi All
As you've probably gathered, I struggle a lot with concentration, focus and attention span and it's been a problem for such a long time that it's really starting to affect my life and wellbeing and it has been non stop issues and concerns. So for over ten years, I have wondered whether if I am truly Dyspraxic and if there is something else that has been undiagnosed for quite sometime.
As I didn't want to speak to my GP about it as the National Health Service can take a long time for a diagnosis and I simply do not have time to wait that long and struggle. I have taken the decision to go privately and see someone about this issue. I could of spoken to Dr K about this, however she always assumes it's just part of depression, anxiety and also living with dyspraxia.
So taking it forward, I have booked an appointment with a Psychiatrist, Dr T and I have the appointment on the 8th September 2018, so watch this space. I think that I have been undiagnosed and that I actually have Attention Deficit Disorder, my memory is very limited in terms short term, attention span, focus and being able to think things through in an organised way. I feel I cannot focus on one thing at a time for any period. Even writing a blog post, can feel running a marathon.
I even noticed, reading back some of my essays that there is lot errors and mistakes. Things are not always clear in what I have written and I have missed a lot of appointments as I couldn't remember. I sometimes regret getting into studying as I am struggling so much.
I just want to be able to function mentally and physically like every Jo Bloggs in everyday life and not have these difficulities. So I am motivated and determined to change my life for better.
One other thing I have changed is that, I have created a journal for brain dumping information, I have this on my mobile and Ipad and its one place, where I can store information and deal with it later rather thinking about it while I am working, studying or blogging. Let's say you are working on a very long essay or report and suddenly the worry of something random happens, say you are "Did I feed Toto this morning?" And instantly, your mind is consumed by your spaniel being hungry all day and no matter what you do you cannot stop thinking about Toto and it's distracting you from actually getting that work done. Having a brain dump allows those worries to be put aside, while you focus your attention on that project, essay or report. It also helps to let things off your chest and write down whatever is going through your mind so you don't feel too cluttered.
I even noticed, reading back some of my essays that there is lot errors and mistakes. Things are not always clear in what I have written and I have missed a lot of appointments as I couldn't remember. I sometimes regret getting into studying as I am struggling so much.
I just want to be able to function mentally and physically like every Jo Bloggs in everyday life and not have these difficulities. So I am motivated and determined to change my life for better.
One other thing I have changed is that, I have created a journal for brain dumping information, I have this on my mobile and Ipad and its one place, where I can store information and deal with it later rather thinking about it while I am working, studying or blogging. Let's say you are working on a very long essay or report and suddenly the worry of something random happens, say you are "Did I feed Toto this morning?" And instantly, your mind is consumed by your spaniel being hungry all day and no matter what you do you cannot stop thinking about Toto and it's distracting you from actually getting that work done. Having a brain dump allows those worries to be put aside, while you focus your attention on that project, essay or report. It also helps to let things off your chest and write down whatever is going through your mind so you don't feel too cluttered.
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